surfacing

I haven’t been around much lately. It’s a little on purpose. I’m in the dissertation home stretch, with my final deadlines fast approaching. My defense is scheduled, just over a month away. Writing that, I get a little tightness in my chest.

I am not always sure I can do this. It seems impossible. And yet here I am, in the last chapter and writing for my life. There is something inexorable about it. I must keep going. I do. Sometimes it feels like all I do.

But I have also become extremely protective of my time and attention. I can only spend my words so many places because behind my words are my thoughts, and I need those thoughts to flow in one main channel these days. I’m burrowing away. I don’t know what’s happening on television. I occasionally send tweets from my phone, but I haven’t opened twitter in days. I’m not running much because I feel like I need all my energy for my work.

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Mr. Data, divert all power to the forward shields.

All this is mainly because I wanted to check in, to let you all know where I am and where I’m going. I miss you and have so many things I want to tell you about, so many ideas, so many thoughts twisting and bubbling in the background.  I just need to do this one thing first.

4 Responses to surfacing

  1. “This one thing” — understatement at its finest ;). You are indeed in the home stretch, head down, eyes on the prize. Wishing you steady progress to the finish and energy to sustain you if ever things slow down.

  2. Jan says:

    YOU CAN DO THIS! (In the “I NEED MEAT” voice.) Inez and I are both rooting for you.

  3. Eric says:

    Fear not, trust Picard! You got this!

  4. Fenny says:

    You are amazing! Keep going, it will end, and it will end well!

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